Lisa Tilson

A full 24 hours late.

No fancy jingle.

Slightly monotone voice from either inexperience or nervousness. Or both.

Very sweaty armpits (see above).

Texts that were perhaps less than developed.

Not bad for the first podcast. I am really excited about the next one, now that the first is over with. The first time is always the most uncomfortable. I hope you enjoy it, and if you didn’t, check back after about five… I should have mastered the process by that time!

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Justin’s and my bikes were stolen this morning at 6:00 am from our appartment garage.  Please, if you see them, call 911.

I vaguely recall a Yogi Bhajan lecture that compared persuing a spiritual practise to digging a hole. He said that if you constantly start new holes, you never actually get there. So, if you want to get there, eventually you have to pick a hole and stick with it. This makes complete sense. Physically, the earth is round, and so any hole, if dug perpendicular to the earth will evenutally end up in the center, thus all holes leading to the same place. Theologically, most religions and spiritual practices come down to roughly the same principals, its just about the story that suits you best. This is not to say that occasionally you won’t hit bedrock and have to call for a larger shovel, it just means that if you stick with one, eventually you will get there, and some therefore, are slower than others.

The hole also brings to mind the tag line from the film “What The Bleep Do We Know?”, how far down the rabbit hole do you want to go?, which of course brings to mind Alice in Wonderland (another story all together, or should I say hole?) Anyway, back to the tag line. Today I considered the question deeply. I have some pretty strong, double blind study style evidence that proves to me that a lot of things are possible, for example, astral projection or the ability to see, feel and interact with energy. I say prove to me, because the evidence is such that I understand it, others may or may not feel the same way. Everytime I get a hit of this, it strengthens my belief that perhaps there is even more to be seen out there.

Where am I going with this? Well, I have been trying out different spiritual tools, and today I am curious about the moon and its effects, and in the same vein, the planets. From my research, I have come to understand fairly competently the moons effects the ocean, and how the phases of the moon work, simple science. Furthermore, I can understand that if the moon effects the ocean, planting according to the moon would effect the growth and yield of your crops (Its no secret, its all over the farmers almanac.) However, there are a lot of people who invest in the idea that the moon effects people, their energy and the outcome of decisions, plans, ideas etc. I have definately experienced full moons that are out of hand, nothing going according to plan, people not communicating and whatnot. In fact, I find more and more that at least the full moon makes quite a significant impact on my life - it definately effects my menstrual cycle. So what about the other phases?

Today I found some information that states the best time to start an endevore, is on the new moon. Immediately, the podcast came to mind. The podcast did not come together last week weekend, not at all. Full moon. The full moon is a little intense for most new ideas, the energy being a little bit overkill (that makes sense, I was I little bit… shall we say, busy?) And what about this weekend, the waning quarter: banishing energy… getting rid of negativity, bad habits. Technically the New moon is the best time for this new project. Shall we wait?
Reasons why waiting would be a good idea:

1. I’m not even done writing yet (I can see why other podcasters invite contributers) and I haven’t even been lazy about it.
2. I don’t completely understand the technical aspect (will I ever?)
3. I got an intuitive hit during the Reiki Share tonight that I should wait.
4. The moon.

Reasons to dive in and air this weekend:

1. I said I was going to.
2. …

I am not one to take something as the word of god until I have really tested it out in my life, so this moon idea still needs to marinade for a while. Hmmm. Three to one then. It looks like I need to follow my intuition instead of waiting until Saturday at midnight like last weekend. I am going to wait. I’m going to give this moon thing a try.

On the bright side, I can blog more this weekend!

PS this weekend I am changing the website to: www.lisatilson.com. We will, however, be redirecting traffic from this URL, so both will work.

I’m not one to voluntarily step out of my bubble. I know this is a peculiar thing for someone who writes a blog about her life journey, and is desparately trying to get a podcast off the ground, but its true. I don’t mind going to new things with an accomplice, but alone… I get a little nervous. My body even goes as far as to manifest strange “emergencies” right before I have to catch a bus to get somewhere new. I suspect that this runs in my family, as my grandfather Hislop often was found in the “can” right as everyone had their coat and boots on. Why, I ask, was I gifted with such an endearing family traite?

What do I do to challenge my inner little old lady with nervous bowels? I mock her! I try new things at unpredictable intervals, never allowing her to get to comfortable.. This time, I decided it is time to check out Toastmasters. I went to great lengths to prevent myself from preventing myself to go. Yesterday, I announced publicly (to my husband) that I would be going to a Toastmasters meeting, that way there would be no getting out of it. Sure enough, today, like clockwork, I found myself ready to go, yet not ready to go, if you know what I mean. Unbeknown to my body - I had planned to take an early bus, and I got my coat on early, so as to trigger any last minute complications beforehand. Heh. I’m sure that will only work once, and luckily, I can only go to a toastmasters meeting for the first time, once.

To be honest, my first impression of the Toastmasters folks was not what I expected.. Admittedly, I expected to find entrepraneurs and new corporate CEO’s sitting smugly in silky suits, chatting in a shallow manner and “gesturing” eradically with their hands and voice. Instead, I walked into a room of people definately twice as old as me, and in one case, just over three times my age. I was greeted at the door by this 86 year old man, typically jewish, fabulous fuzzy, out of control, white hair and beard with his pants properly pulled up past his belly button. He graciously took me to the seat beside him and explained in detail how it all works. The rest of the group casually introduced themselves to me, were very friendly, and not shallow in the least.

I enjoyed the meeting immensely, mainly because it was so efficient and usefull. Everyone was a different levels of perfection, and the best word to describe the process is clockwork. There are lights and bells to indicate timing, and when your time is up, you shut up and clear the podium, mid sentense or no. No one talks longer than they are allowed, each person gets the time they deserve, everyone is still awake when the meeting ends - on time! The little jewish man pointed out to me after the meeting that one becomes annoyed with the way other people communicate, if only everyone could be so efficient in their communication - boy can I relate, I regularly ramble on with out having entirely planned the end of what I’m saying!

Speaking of which, I was encouraged to do a “table topic”, which I did and was evaluated accordingly. I was a little sweaty, and a little fidgity, but I only used the superlative “like” once, which is rare for my normal speech, so I felt good. The evaluator decided that I deserved to have the “best table topic of the day”cup, and weather that was designed to seal the deal for me or not, I’m in. I’m excited to see its effect on my writing style and my podcast over time.  Now if only I could get paid for talking…

I committed to airing my first podcast today, and today I am finally willing to admit that it isn’t going to happen. In fact, I knew that the very notion of starting a new job and doing my first podcast in the same week was completely insane on wednesday, possibly sooner, but I allowed my sometimes unrealistic belief that “anything is possible” to reign.

Here I am to tell you that the first episode will air on the third quarter, next Sunday, December 2nd, 2007.